Therapist.

I know everyone wants to remind me of you but honestly I haven't forgotten you, I remember everything you said to me and everything that happened. I don't need everyone asking how I am after you passed. Obviously I'm still alive, when you died I felt like I died, my heartbeat got slow and I felt like I couldn't breathe. I hate how they keep saying "are you okay" and bringing you up every minute, normally me and the person talk about what good is going on in my life and then they bring you up and I want to cry or runaway and not look back. Seriously if you want to know how I feel about my friend Alex Cook, look in my eyes, they've seen it all and cried all the tears for him. Next time talk about something different with me, I worry about everything so much, like Cookie's girlfriend I watch out for her and I feel so sad whenever I see her status about him. I just want to take all this pain away, I wish you were still alive there's so much I want to tell you and talk about and advice for sure. We need you back Alex.

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Everyday I stare at your picture,
the vivid look on your smiling face,
tears fall on that picture,
as I sit there, tears falling on my tear stained cheeks.

you died at such a young age,
why did it have to happen to you,
you were my best friend, my brother,
and I never get to see you again.

it was a horrible accident,
that wave taking you away from everyone,
that feeling in my heart knowing,
just knowing that you were drifting away from everyone that you loved.

When I heard you died,
my heart broke in two,
I couldn't breathe,
my body was shutting down.

That day I saw you,
your body was cold, your face white,
as white as a ghost.
I held back on the tears, but the saddest thing was when I saw you I burst into tears.

When I saw your beloved girlfriend,
the tears were in her eyes as I hugged her,
tears falling fast on my cheeks,
faster than a waterfall in the forests.

I sat down when I had enough,
I couldn't say anything, 
I buried my face in my hands and sobbed,
the last words in my heart said, "goodbye Alex."


 

I Cannot Wait To See You Again.

You Always put a smile on my face
no matter how mad I was 
all I had to do was call you and you would make everything better. 
The day that I heard that you were taken from us my heart broke. 
I Dropped down to my knees and cried and cried. 
All I wanted was for one more day with you 
As I sit here at your grave looking at your picture. 
All I want to do is hug you and laugh with you and play basketball with you. 
I miss you so much we all do. 
and when you died. 
The whole town felt the pain. 
You were only 18 years old. 
You didn’t deserve to die. 
You wanted to get married and go to college
Have babies and have a family, with only Maryrose
You've been gone for three months now and I miss you like hell 
I think about you everyday 
It’s getting easier. 
But every time I look at your picture or pull out the scrapbook my eyes start to water. 
I will never forget you 
Alex Cook
I love you and miss you,
but I know that your in heaven 
looking over all of us.. 
I can’t wait until I get to see you again 

I Would Have.

I wake up thinking of you,
I fall asleep thinking of you,
I sometimes want to die with you...

You were the light in the dark
The squeeze in a hug
And the brother in my heart

When I heard the blood in my body stopped
My heart screamed 
And I felt dead...

You made me feel happy and loved
I see the signs everywhere that you are present
But I never will stare in your eyes again...

If there was one thing, one thing at all...
I would take back 7:15 p.m...
FOREVER!

I cry for you
I love you
And I would have died for you...

R.I.P Jacob Campbell.

Your smile, your laughter
-Only a memory.
Your voice, your personality
-Only a memory.

Sometimes people mention your name.
Some just keep quiet.
But no matter what is or isn’t said.
You’re always on someone’s mind.

two years have gone by,
But it seems like only yesterday,
You were by your family’s side.

We can only think of who you’d be,
To us, you only remain a memory.

It’s been a while since you’ve been gone.
For your friends and family, things just aren’t the same.
It still doesn’t seem real.
Who holds the blame?

If love could have saved you,
You’d still be here today.
The love we hold for you,
Will never change.

As you lay in a still rest,
God broke our hearts to prove he took the best.
Everything you did, everything you were.
It’s only a memory.

I Miss You.

I miss you more than words could say,
I think about you each and everyday.
why's you leave this world without saying goodbye,
you left us all here just to cry.
you are my best friend my life we never part,
just because you are gone you still in my heart.
I hope that you are good in that safe place,
I miss you so much and be sure to save me a place.

Slipped Away- Avril Lavigne

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere you're not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same no..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that I found it won't be the same oh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

Best Friends.

I know you are in a better place
But I miss looking at your face
You were so young to die
Every night I sit and cry
Wondering why does it have to be this way
It hurts so much because there’s nothing I can do or say
That can make you come back to me
There is one thing that’s plain to see
That one day we will be together again
And now until then you will always remain my best friend

To Alex Cook.

Even though he's gone
his memory still remains in our hearts.
His smile and face will never fade.
We think of him as we go on each day.
The good times we remember
and the days spent together
will be in our memories forever.
So when you start to get down
and you really want to cry
just think of the fun times
and don't wonder why.
Just leave it at that
and know he's better now.
He's in a better place.
His heart was right with God.
So Alex we ALL love you
and we miss you so much
but we know you're much happier.
So watch over us and make sure we're okay
and we will see you again someday.

Why Did You Have To Go?

I sit around and wonder,
and watch the days go by.
I look at all the pictures,
and ask, why did you have to die?

You've always been there for me,
because you were my best friend,
and I was always there for you
until the very end.

But now it's time to let you go,
your spirit now is free.
Even though you won't really be gone,
because you'll live inside of me.

So when we have to leave you
at your resting place,
I will always remember
your smiling, beautiful face.

This is hardly a goodbye,
so I won't weep anymore,
because now you're in better place
then you ever were before.

Even though that I will miss you,
and I'll think about you everyday
you'll always be my best friend,
and that's all I have to say.

Time Helps Heal The Wounds In Our Hearts.

Although unheard I thank you
For always being there
Even when you were bedridden
You always seemed to care

You meant so much to all of us
you were special and that's no lie
you brightened up the darkest day
and even the greyest sky

Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
Cause your no longer in pain.

Not long ago I remember you
And what you used to say
You made each of us smile
And live to the fullest each day

They say in time it gets easier
I believe this isn’t true
Because even after all this time
I still don’t have a clue

I was not ready to say goodbye
Your disease just over took
So on this day we remember you
I take a second look

Our friendship is forever
Until death, did we part
Although your away physically
You’re always in my heart