Fighting The Tears.

Its hard to lose one friend but two? Rest In Peace Jacob Zachary Campbell, we will never know why you took your life along with lisa but I hope everything now up there in heaven is sorted out and I hope you guys can forgive yourselves for I have forgiven you. I just don't know why it had to be suicide, If I knew that was the case I could have stopped that nonsense, but it was too late you and your beautiful girlfriend escaped reality. I remember Jake was driving around with me and I brought him to where you took your life, I ran across that field up by the big hill where it all happened and I tripped and poured my heart out to you, I cried hardly in the harsh rain that poured upon me,  I felt your hand on my back and I weeped. And I will never forget that moment, the day I felt your cold hand. Rest In Peace Alex Cook, I remember that horrible day, well night. And that thunderstorm that happened once they found you was I knew it was you. ever since you left I see you everywhere and I don't see much ghosts and I'm mostly scared of them but I see you frequently and I'm not scared I just get lonely and sometimes sad, most times when I see you I am happy that you chose to see me. I know that if you were here I could be like "whoa that dream was horrible, be careful," but its not a dream its more of a nightmare that we all will never wake up from. I feel your touch and you clearly make it known that you are there, sometimes Astro will sense you if we are over at Shi's house with her and her family, he will just bark and then lay down on his back and kick his foot as if you were scratching his belly. I know you have never met Astro but now you have and you guys are two peas in a pod. What's sad to see the most is if I type into google "Alex Cook" one of the first suggestions is Alex Cook Obituary. Rest in peace my friends. Jacob Campbell 10/12/10 & Alex Cook 7/18/12

Amazing.

So when it was the 5th months that Cookie had been gone Maryrose's dog Athena dies and that was Cookie's favorite dog, and when Cookie first died it was her cat that died and that was also his favorite cat. Now Maryrose's grandmother has cancer and that's Cookie's favorite person. He is getting everything he wants and now he's never alone. Something scary? hmm well my family was out of town for 4 days up north in Alexandria and they locked the door when they left and when they came home my mom texted me and said "YOU'RE LIGHT IS ON IN YOUR ROOM! it wasn't when we left" and it was a 4 by 4 little light that you have to switch on and my mom said "well if it was the landlord you think she would turn on the big light and possibly forget about that light" and I went to my closet and pulled out my Cookie monster hat and said "he wore this one day when Jake and I were bringing him to Shane's work, his brother and he put this hat on when he was in the back of Jake's car." I knew he was checking up on me...

Say Thanks Bro!

Yet again Alexander Cook, you just love to cause trouble at my work, sunday when I was working I had to bring the row bar full of clothes from the dressing room to the floor and put them away and when I walked passed my row bar I didn't touch it but I walked passed it and it was like someone pushed it and it got the back of my ankle, and I know that would be something Cookie would do, but he just loves to make messes and scare me. No doubt he is still here, he has too big of heart and way too much energy in his soul to ever be lost and forgotten, Maryrose said that he's always at her house, but the nights I work I asked her "was cookie at your house?" and she would say no and then I knew he was at my work.

I Shit You Not...

Yesterday I worked from 3:30 to 8:15 and I was working in zone 3 which is the home and clearance isle's and I did some recovery from up front for kids toys and infant toys. There is a huge toy wall for both boy's and girl's toys and then there is an infant and toddler toy wall and its pretty big, I had to bring back some baby clothes and you have to pass the infant and toddler toy wall and as I walked passed it I heard loudly "COOOOOOOKKKIES," and I screamed and I walked to the toy and it said "Push here to hear baby cookie monster" and so I pushed it again and it said the same thing and I walked away from it and when I was putting picture frames back I stacked them on each other and it was crazy because after I put them up and stacked away I walked away to a couple isle's down and this lady came to find me and said "the picture frames are on the ground face down" and I thought "how? I stacked them up" and so I walked with her back to the picture frames and she said that she was by them when they dropped but she knock them over and that she had cold chills. This now was the work of a best friend of mine who got me into trouble but was trying to show me that he cared  and was around in a odd way. Out of all the infant and toddler toys only the cookie monster one went off and you had to clearly push for the noises. I really hope that Alex can find another way of showing he's here than pushing things off shelves.

To A Friend.

I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
[paranoia woven deep beneath my skin]
I'll draw this line
and hope you'll take my side (breath slow, breath slow)
you shouldn't have to fight alone
[you shouldn't have to fight at all]
its nobody's battle but your own