Days Go By.

Day after day I think about you more and more. My friend Jasmine lives in Cimarron now and she kinda lives close to where you used to live, and every time I go there I literally can feel your presence and its a very large about of it, kind of over whelming but in a good way. I know I haven't written on your wall on Facebook much but that's only because I don't always want the world to see what I am saying to you, though its nothing bad or wrong I just don't feel like sharing every little detail about how I miss you with the world and all your friends. Life is rough and it just keeps getting there but one day we will meet again and then you can meet my daughter Kiara and see the beauty that I have made. I write to you on here because not a lot of people look at my blog and if they do then its people that know you as well or have heard of you. You don't visit me in my dreams anymore and I know there's a lot of people that you visit but I wish you could visit more often. Sometimes I hear you knocking things off the shelves in my apartment, how do I know its you? Who else would it be? another spirit? I don't think so. When I posted about you in my dreams on your wall on Facebook this girl said she talked to a psychic about it and she said that was your way of saying "hey I'm here" or spending time with that person since you physically cannot. And you used to visit me a lot before I left Stillwater. But sometimes at my apartment you will knock things off shelves or you will make my lights outside go off, I don't know but you do little things. I want to see you do something big now. Well I am at school trying to finish up before Kiara comes into the world and though I may not finish before she is out I will only be one step closer. I only have 105 hours left and as long as I get the minimum hours this grading period which is 144 then I will make my hours and then some. But the only hard part is that Kiara will be here in two weeks or less and then school has to give me 6 weeks off, and I know I can bring work home or have Gina bring it out but I will be so focused on her that nothing else will matter. Anyways, just thought I'd say what's up and fill you in on my life since I kinda left you out of it for the longest time.

You, Mister!

So I've had some dreams about you and I have posted on your facebook that you have been giving me lots of dreams and this girl comments on it saying that if you have dreams of him that means he was next to you at night before bed and he was giving you those dreams which was weird because those times that I had those dreams was from when something happened that night and I thought it was you, which is turns out which it is you.

Things I'v Heard.

I've heard that you always talked about jokingly that if you died that you would always be there still for people that needed you and that also you said once you die whenever that may be that you were going to fight God and there was going to be a three day battle and you had said it would be raining those three days non stop. Well I do remember that the night that they recovered you're body it rained so hard all through the night and the next two days it had rained non stop and one of the days the sirens where going off because of how bad it got. It amazes me that you said those things and those things did happen and that you still are around because I am having issues with my boyfriend and you said that if he hurts me that you will hurt him so bad, and I still believe you will. A couple nights ago you had made it clear you were there in our room so I know you're still around.

40 Days.

This song reminds me of you.

Let's start at one 
And count the days
Let's hope to God that time flies like they say
Cause this instance can't distance my heart from yours tonight
But I'm lying awake now and I'm holding your picture
It's so cold here without you

And I need you now, cause it's killing me
And I wish somehow, you were here with me
When I fall asleep I feel you with me
Till I fall asleep and you are with me 

Could this be more 
I've been up all night riding subway lines
Now we're sleeping on your floor 

Can we make this a lifetime, you're all I want right now
Life keeps telling me I need to go
But what if I wanna stay
Cause I'm lost here without you

I found a love I never have before, you changed me
And I will wait however long it takes, you changed me
You say the words that I've been thinking
I'll never let you go
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Song meaning: Beau Bokan(blessthefall)  has recently been engaged to his gf, Lights. They are both musicians and often away for "40 days" with touring, etc.. Its a love song from him to her, using lyrics from one of her songs "And Counting". 
"When I fall Asleep I feel you with me, until I fall asleep and you are with me" 

Happy Almost Birthday Bro!

Hey Alex your birthday is April 11th and just in case if I get caught up in everything that day Happy Birthday I miss you like crazy so does Maryrose and everyone that you have touched. Class is about to end but I love you and miss you happy birthday Cookie.

Some Good News.

Well hello Cookie I just wanted to say that I know I've been holding it off but I wanted to tell you that you are an uncle and even though you are passed I will show it every picture of you and have it call you uncle cookie and I know you visit me enough that you will be able to see it. I didn't want to say anymore because I don't want the world to know I will tell you more once it starts growing more.