I Am In Need.

I need you here, wicked bad day. I'm taking Maryrose home today. So that's a plus, but seriously  today sucks I'm not going to say why cause it could be fixed but my heart aches so badly. It doesn't want to beat anymore.

The Shadows Of My Heart- Halestorm.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMZknEiHQmM

I feel you, washing over me
I touch you, like broken glass under my feet
Carefully, taking hold of my heart
Slowly, tearing it apart....tearing it apart

With these tears i cry
Lord knows i tried
Now how can i let go
When you dwell in the shadows of my heart

Maybe you can't remember, something you'd never forget
Something you needed to know, is something i'll always regret
Now i stand here broken, the love i wanted you never held to
No no.. you brought me down to my knees
And i went through hell for you...through hell for you

With these tears i cry
Lord knows i tried
Now how can i let go
When you dwell in the shadows of my heart..no no no...

Dwell in the shadows of my heart, slowly tearing me apart



Now how can i let go..when you dwell inthe shadows of my heart

Everyday Since Then.

Everyday since you've been gone I have thought about you, If I saw something you would like I would think of you like that or in general I just think and remember everyday. I wish I could have stopped it. I think everyone wants to forget it, but we can't. I hope your friends and family are alright because I know some of them are severely sad and I wish I could help but I can't find the way to help. When I turn 18 in 4 months I am getting a big tattoo. across my shoulders on my back it'll say "Rest In Peace Bro" and then my middle back will have a big portrait of you giving the peace signs on the couch and then next to that it'll say in little letters "Cookie Inc" like how at the end of some companies put "tm" it'll say Cookie inc with a little cookie monster head next to it. It will cost a lot but maybe someone can help pay for it. If I could ask someone who has your ashes I would ask what  I'd have to do to get just a little tiny bit to put into my tattoo. I'll have to do one at a time.