Days Go By.

Day after day I think about you more and more. My friend Jasmine lives in Cimarron now and she kinda lives close to where you used to live, and every time I go there I literally can feel your presence and its a very large about of it, kind of over whelming but in a good way. I know I haven't written on your wall on Facebook much but that's only because I don't always want the world to see what I am saying to you, though its nothing bad or wrong I just don't feel like sharing every little detail about how I miss you with the world and all your friends. Life is rough and it just keeps getting there but one day we will meet again and then you can meet my daughter Kiara and see the beauty that I have made. I write to you on here because not a lot of people look at my blog and if they do then its people that know you as well or have heard of you. You don't visit me in my dreams anymore and I know there's a lot of people that you visit but I wish you could visit more often. Sometimes I hear you knocking things off the shelves in my apartment, how do I know its you? Who else would it be? another spirit? I don't think so. When I posted about you in my dreams on your wall on Facebook this girl said she talked to a psychic about it and she said that was your way of saying "hey I'm here" or spending time with that person since you physically cannot. And you used to visit me a lot before I left Stillwater. But sometimes at my apartment you will knock things off shelves or you will make my lights outside go off, I don't know but you do little things. I want to see you do something big now. Well I am at school trying to finish up before Kiara comes into the world and though I may not finish before she is out I will only be one step closer. I only have 105 hours left and as long as I get the minimum hours this grading period which is 144 then I will make my hours and then some. But the only hard part is that Kiara will be here in two weeks or less and then school has to give me 6 weeks off, and I know I can bring work home or have Gina bring it out but I will be so focused on her that nothing else will matter. Anyways, just thought I'd say what's up and fill you in on my life since I kinda left you out of it for the longest time.